Faith, Today and Beyond

Have you ever wondered why you have to go through certain experiences? Well I'm back to the theme of patience. When is the lesson ever going to end? I get it, I need to have more of it. All these holding patterns on an action oriented person is stifling. I feel like the 'Hanged Man' day in and day out. Always observing and watching, but never able to act upon.

I've been told and seen, but even then I try to work my own wants and will. It doesn't end up well. Even though I know better, I just hope that it will work out. Nope! Not gonna happen. All that happens is I become extremely frustrated. I feel like the guy in the song "The man who can't be moved", you want someone to come and find you, but they aren't meant to. Accepting your broken heart and hoping things will change is all that you can do. This is the path I've chosen. I hate it but I have to deal.

All I know is if God is supposed to provide better, then I have spectacular things ahead!  I need to maintain as his faithful servant and know that it is all for the best. No one said it was easy or I wouldn't have to grieve a loss I didn't expect to have.

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place the we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I'm not moving
I'm not moving